Why our hearts have hardened

Reading the Quran often evokes many different emotions: fear, happiness, joy, anticipation, hope, etc. It's not often that a verse evokes a sense of sadness. However, every time I read the following verse in Surah Maryam, I feel an overwhelming sense of sadness.

Surah Maryam, verses 58:

أُولَٰئِكَ الَّذِينَ أَنْعَمَ اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِم مِّنَ النَّبِيِّينَ مِن ذُرِّيَّةِ آدَمَ وَمِمَّنْ حَمَلْنَا مَعَ نُوحٍ وَمِن ذُرِّيَّةِ إِبْرَاهِيمَ وَإِسْرَائِيلَ وَمِمَّنْ هَدَيْنَا وَاجْتَبَيْنَا إِذَا تُتْلَىٰ عَلَيْهِمْ آيَاتُ الرَّحْمَٰنِ خَرُّوا سُجَّدًا وَبُكِيًّا

"Those were whom Allah bestowed His Grace from among the Prophets, of the offspring of Adam, and of those whom We carried with Noah, and of the offspring of Abraham and Israel and from among those whom We guided and chose. When the Verses of the Most Merciful were recited unto them, they fell down prostrating and weeping."

The verse talks about how the righteous and guided, upon hearing the verses of God, fell in prostration and would begin weeping. Hearing the words of God would move them to their core. They couldn't help but be in awe when verses would be recited. 

This saddens me because when I hear this verse, I cannot help but think, "what happened to us"? Why am I often not emotionally moved by the words of God? Perhaps our hearts have hardened to the point where verses of God do not affect us as they affected those before us. 

As I read this verse and kept questioning myself, searching for an answer to why we are not emotionally moved by His words, I came across the very next verse in the chapter. And there lies the answer to my very own question. 

فَخَلَفَ مِن بَعْدِهِمْ خَلْفٌ أَضَاعُوا الصَّلَاةَ وَاتَّبَعُوا الشَّهَوَات

"Then, there a generation came after them who had given up Salah (the prayers) and followed desires..."

God says in the next verse that another generation will come that will neglect their prayers and follow their desires. This verse accurately described problems in our day today. 

I began thinking about my daily routine, my regimen, my prayers, my priorities. Do I pray on time? Do I focus in prayer? What is the status of my relationship with God? Am I in control of my desires? What are my intentions in every action I take? The answer to these questions also answers why we are not moved by the verses of God. We have disconnected from our prayers, our connection to God. We live for life, while our faith is placed on the back burner. Our prayers have become merely an exercise of movements and words we place no thought to. Our prayers are the foundation that puts our life in check. And we have neglected them. 

Reading these verses, comparing the older generation to ours, and contemplating on the state of our affairs, shook me to the core. May God help you and I be in control of our worldly desires, and may He help us build a righteous life with prayers being our priority and center of our daily lives. Perhaps after we do exactly that, we will be able to taste the sweetness of His words as those before us did. 

An Eternal friend

Have you ever had an extremely close friend become a very distant one years later? You may miss the relationship you had with that person so much that you just want to talk to them and pick up where you were last were. Every time you see them, you almost feel guilty for growing so distant from such a great friend. Yet at the same time you know that as time changes, people change, and that person may be someone totally different from who you knew them to be. Therefore, you don't do anything about it but just continuously reminisce about the good friendship you had back in the day.  

Throughout my high school, college and university life, I had built such a strong bond with the Quran. It was literally my best friend. It was the friend that would always be there when times were down. Reading, memorizing and reflecting the Quran would be my only solace for the next few years. 

Unfortunately, things change and as I became busy with moving to a new city, forming new friends and eventually becoming a mother to two girls, I had very little time with the Quran. Our relationship that was once so strong didn't seem that special anymore. Every time I went to open the Quran and read, guilt overcame me. I questioned myself why didn't I know the Quran so well as I once did? I missed the bond we had so much but didn't know where to start. I wanted that best friend back more than ever. 

Today, I'm still working on strengthening my relationship and hope to be where I once was. But I did realize something throughout this process. People may change but the Quran never will. If you have lost touch with the Quran, the good thing is you know it's you who needs to work on your relationship. You are the one with shortcomings. Instead of reminiscing, pick it back up and know that the relationship you once had will undoubtedly come back, only from a little effort from your side. Open its pages, read it daily and prioritize it in your life. You will see the friendship you once had mend back together and flourish once again. 

May Allah help us make the Quran a dear friend for all of us and make it a reason we enter Jannah with flying colors. 

Here is a short article I wrote a few years ago about why the Quran should be a best friend: http://myquranicreflections.blogspot.com/2014/03/quran-friend.html?m=1

Mom: A universal language

(1) O people, be conscious of your Lord. The quaking of the Hour is a tremendous thing.

(2) On the Day when you will see it: every nursing mother will pay no attention to her infant, and every pregnant woman will abort her load, and you will see the people drunk, even though they are not drunk, but the punishment of God is severe.

يَا أَيُّهَا النَّاسُ اتَّقُوا رَبَّكُمْ إِنَّ زَلْزَلَةَ السَّاعَةِ شَيْءٌ عَظِيمٌ

يَوْمَ تَرَوْنَهَا تَذْهَلُ كُلُّ مُرْضِعَةٍ عَمَّا أَرْضَعَتْ وَتَضَعُ كُلُّ ذَاتِ حَمْلٍ حَمْلَهَا وَتَرَى النَّاسَ سُكَارَىٰ وَمَا هُم بِسُكَارَىٰ وَلَٰكِنَّ عَذَابَ اللَّهِ شَدِيدٌ

You know what amazes me about these first two verses of Surah Alhajj? The fact that Allah is talking about the severity and the craziness of the day of judgement and in order for us to grasp how crazy that day will be He uses no other scenario than the scenario of a nursing mother leaving her baby and of a pregnant woman not caring for what she is carrying inside. To show us what that day will look like or just to give us even a glimpse, Allah uses the scene of that mom and that baby. Imagine all the different scenarios that could have been used here. What does that say about the immense amount of love, care and mercy a mom has for her child? To focus all our attention to these two scenes, what does that say to a woman's unwavering compassion to her child?! In order for us to even slightly understand what that day will be like, we are forced to think of a nursing mom neglecting her baby. The immense love moms have is a universal fact and how appropriate that Allah proves that in these 2 verses. May Allah help us on that day and may we be from those who enter Paradise with the prophets and the righteous. Ameen.